Monthly Archives: September 2013

My thoughts are not wrong.

Life is hard. People lie. Bad things happen. Hopes get demolished. Beliefs are challenged. Anything that would make a person satisfied is always threatened by something, even if the only threat is ourselves.

Living on this sort of place I have never been able to understand why people are so against opinions. Why they are so against ideals and things that, to them, is completely bonkers and birthed out in a left field so far away that it’s impossible to see. Why are people so eager to crush the thoughts and opinions of others?

Fear. Fear of the unknown. Fear that if someone had a thought other than the majorities that it will change the whole system. Even if they don’t like how the current system works, because of fear, they don’t want to see it changed. The biggest way to keep people from formulating thoughts that are not warranted is to keep them from reading. Keep them from seeing the insides of another persons head – unless that person is saying all the things that you want them to say, then it’s okay. The can’t imagine anything different if there is nothing different to think about.

Others may say that it is about control, but people want to have control because they have fear. The two work hand and hand.

One of the most absurd things I always hear when people find out what I do is they say, “Aren’t you a bit old for fairy tales? ” Do they not know that it is the people of my generation, and older, who are writing books and scripts for things that they should have, according to some crazy notion, stopped thinking about years ago? Perhaps they are afraid that if the older generation is dreaming, and thinking outside the box, coming up with new ways to think about subjects and handling problems, that they will teach it to their kids. And those people will dream and the world will stop being the way it is and transform to something new! They’re afraid of the new!

When people are afraid they hold on to what they know, even if they feel it is the wrong thing to do. It’s almost a knee jerk reaction and it takes a rather strong crowbar to get them to budge. Someone told me that I don’t know when to stop playing and that the voices in my head are simply that – voices that I created. If people took time to sit down, with their problems, and talk things out the I believe that things would be better. But we are told that talking to ourselves is wrong, it makes us crazy. There’s nothing wring with it.

There’s nothing wrong with girls wanting to be the MVP in football, or a boy wanting to dance In a ballet. Why must be out down the thoughts and ways if other people, if they do different that out expected norm? Encourage them, even if what they are doing seems silly and off base. Encourage yourself to do something different.

Don’t let anyone tell you that your thought are wrong.


Posted by on September 29, 2013 in writing


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Dictators all around.

Sometimes the voices forget who is in charge. They think that, just because I brought them into existence, that they have a right to dictate how things work inside my own head. Write this now. Change this. I think – no, I know – you should use this instead. Yadda, yadda, yadda, blah, blah, blah. With all the things that they have to say I sometimes wonder if my voices have voices.

Wouldn’t that be interesting.

I’ve always found it annoying when a person looks at your situation and, suddenly, they are an expert on the matter. They can tell you all the things you do wrong, offer advice on the situation, and even tell you the things you are suppose to do next; and they do it all whether you asked or not. (Most of the time it’s ‘not’.)

“I see you’re wearing sandals on a cold day, let me tell you something about body temperature….” Then you’re stuck listening to the person educate you proper situational footwear and the effects on the body! How do they know all this stuff? Did they randomly happen to search WebMD for the subject and make it their mission to tell everyone they met? Or, the more likely story, they are giving their well thought out opinion in hopes that you’ll take them seriously.

Be grateful when you find a chance to leave that conversation.

My characters can be like that, thinking that they know better than I do and are able to produce better results. Now, I will admit, that sometimes by listening to what the voices have to say, I end up with a pretty good product! Other times….not so much. When they have successfully convinced me to do it their way, and it flops, I turn to the voices to see them whistling innocently. Some even have the nerve to say that I shouldn’t have listened! (“Don’t know why you’re listening to me….”)

There are a lot of things in life that try to dictate your actions, tell you what you should do and how you should do it. At the end of the day the one who has to deal with the reality of your actions is you.

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Posted by on September 18, 2013 in ramblings, writing


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